YESTERDAY IS HISTORY

TOMORROW IS A MYSTERY

TODAY IS A 'GIFT'
THAT'S WHY THEY CALL IT A 'PRESENT'

booooooooooooooooring
sangat sangat
booooooooooooring

zzz

Until you crash
Until you burn
Until you lie
Until you learn
Until you see
Until you believe
Until you fight
Until you fall
Until the end of everything at all
Until you die
Until you’re alive

Don’t save me, don’t save me, cuz I don’t care
Don’t save me, don’t save me, cuz
I don’t care

Until you give
Until you’ve used
Until you’ve lost
Until you lose
Until you see, how could you believe?

Until you’ve lived a thousand times
Until you’ve seen the other side
This is my chance, this is my self.

Until the truth becomes a lie
Until you change, until you deny
Until you believe

happy holiday

hooraaaaay
school break is finally start
it suppose to be great thing's to me
but for some and unexpected reason make me not so happy
why....
emm maybe I think of my so call hell the SPM next year
it really make me sick
well i have some plan for it
and my holiday will be more academic stuff
i'm planning to attend so many program for SPM preparation
well seems today is my last day to be a form 4 student
and it rally paradokating me
my form 4 year is not turn out to be what i expected
..................
well i hope i can cover all the thing that i think i over miss it till next year

spontanious word

Lie awake in bed at night
And think about your life
Do you want to be different?

Try to let go of the truth
The battles of your youth
’Cause this is just a game


It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last

Hide behind an empty face
Don't ask too much, just say
'Cause this is just a game

wish

FOR NOW
I ONLY HAD ONE WISH AND
ONE WISH ONLY

I JUST WANT THE WORLD
TO NOTICE MY EXSISTEND

just writing

with the light out it's a little
less dangerous.
even with a stranger never gets painless.
don't be afraid

every time i think I'm gonna change it
think i'm gonna change it,
think i'm gonna change it,
it's driving me insane
insane

maybe tonight we can forget about it all
it could be just like heaven

I am a machine
No longer living, just a shell of what I dreamed

Do you live, do you die, do you bleed
For the dream
In your mind, through your eyes, do you see
It’s the fantasy

exam dah habis yeaa

my exam finally over
horeeeeeeeeeey
merdeka (for a moment)

why should i do now
prepare for next year(naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa)
it impossible for me to study at home(bahahahhahhahahahahah)

anyway i have some plan
-see some movies
-online 24/7 (hahahahaha)
-and other that im not think of it yet

at last

at last
its over already
my additional math paper become history today
well glad its all over
only 1 paper last
bio (more boring stuff)

enough already
today a fiesta happen .lol.
bahahahhaha
my anoying friend recieve a flour bath wifth egg soup
bahahahah
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
lol

waiting for the day after today!!!

tomorrow ...
10 November 09
ahahahahhaa lol..
the day that i waited to come
and still the day i fear the most

add math make me sick
but still there's a light in this dark side
bahahahahah(over words)
my so call friend who distract me the most birthday
the day of the flour bath
coke sprinkle
and egg boom
bahahahhahah

3 words

beware
be ready
becarefull

lepas tension

gila
esok add math
tak tahu apa pown skang ni
mana noob pon kah3
anyway
nak study dah tak sempat
so ...
tawakal jea laaaaaaaaa
kah3

when i see him
i see a reflection of myself
pity me
why
why im so useless
why im so bad
why im so ....
why can i just be a good boy
just like him
is that so hard
i know how
but still........

why

everyday i said to myself i want to change
but why

WHY CAN'T I CHANGE

it's a beutiful lie
such a beutiful lie
to believe in
so beutiful
beutiful
..


hidup ini penuh dengan penipuan

exam oh exam

I'M STRESS UPON EXAMINATION
lack of rivision
lack of time
and bla blabla braging

PEOPLE ALWAYS SAY THAT WE CAN FLY IF WE TRY , THATS A LIE
BUT STILL............

i hate me

Frustrated is unwillingly upon me
Mad of my action
Mad of my reaction
What done is done that’s nothing I can do
Even I sell my soul to the devil
Still I can reverse the time
Change what happen

I don’t understand why I’m deeply solemn
Still it’s just a simple live present’s happen to me
But this strange emotion still taking control of me
Little by little , slowly conquering my
Self-conciousness without me noticing it

That’s so much task to do
And so much problem to face
And I can even keep up along with time

simple words that has deep meaning

Kau kata kan cintagunakan akal
Tapi kau yang menyangkal
Kau katakana cinta gunakan minda
Tapi kau yang tak terima

Kaulah bahagia
Kaulah derita

.//./././././././☺☻♥♦♣♠•◘○

emmmmmmm...........
its been 3 days
and i felt nothing
nothing at all
aidilfitri fell nothing to me at all
this year
it's suppose to be a great celebration
but i fell it just a plain day
just like a normal day...

maybe
i think
when we getting much older
raya is more worthless
just like a simple day



p/s.. mungkin sebab x dapat duit raye bila pgi rumah orang kot wakakakakak :p

RAYA of raya

selamat hari raya sya ucapkan kepada semua yang mengenali diri
terutama rakan-rakan , guru, and class mate
maaf zahir batin(klau ada)

have a nice holiday
and i hope we will see each other again

TAKZIAH

takziah kepada arwah datuk saya yang telah kembali ke
Rahmatullah ahad lalu...smoga roh nya dicucuri rahmat dan
digolongkan di dalam orang-orang beriman



ENDUT BIN MAT
1921-2009

fuihhhhh
the September test
finally end
fell so relief
hope i better result from before
after all i did work hard (lol):P
............................................
well nothing interesting happen to me this week
just same old boring life
and i desperately
waiting for SHAWAL to come
RAYA oh RAYA
just 9 day to go
.
as usual in every year
my family will fly away to kuantan
to celebrate ie in my mom's hometown
will this year
RAYA Will be great for me
before next year
i will face my faitH in SPM

.......................
.......................

just because you win
doesn't mean i had lost
...................

i miss u
it's hard to tell
if you ever come again

•◘○♦♣♠☺☻♥

☺☻♥♦♣♠•◘○☺☻♥-§$#→Ñ↕9@262♥☺☻3-
countles dream
that full of hope

WE LEAVE IN A

planet of

♣ENDLESS ILUSION♣

i got a feeling
that tonight gone a be a good night
that tonight will be a good night
that tonight will be a good night........

'let's do it '

realy

oh you rEmind me of... you
.......
yea you right
i'am what i'am
no matter what people say

IT JUST ME
IT'S MY LIFE

TODAY at school

today is the first day the school open after a break
for about a week
nothing much happen today
just same old booring day in school life's
except for the fasting sensasion
tired
but still got enough spirit to learn

next week we got an exam
and i wish i can do well in it
wish me luck

The anger in me

This ill temper I have is making me mad
I blow up and I don’t know why
I wish for just a moment I could handle my anger right
I wish for just a moment I could love you right
I wish my attitude would just go away
I wish my anger would stay at bay
This outlook I have on life needs to change
This outlook I have you needs to say the same
I love you deep down inside
I wish you would see
That you’re the only princess for me

The anger I have deep in side
Comes out when I least expect it
This anger I have in me should just go away
This anger I have is an annoyance
This anger I have has messed my life up
This anger I have is stupid
Anger you have messed up my world
Anger you have messed up my life
Anger you have destroyed who I am inside and out
Anger you are the devil
Anger you are all that is bad
This anger I have in me has made me fight
A fight that was not worth it

Anger you made me hit the wrong person
Anger you made me do the wrong things
Anger you are the feeling that I would never miss
Anger you have caused me so much sorrow
Anger you have caused nothing but grief.
Anger just go away

end of my holyday season

day by day
time by time
tic toc
when my eyes open
in the late mornig
in my past few day
that surely had end
emmmmmmmmmmm...

everyday just past so sudenly
day by day
i never thogh that time just pass so
sudenly
well time just pass like that(in the blink of teh eye)
never wait for desprate people like me

TIME

sure wish AEON CLOCK(fiction god) was real
and i can ask him to stop the time

time

Fasting in Ramadan

he most prominent event of this month is fasting. Every day during the month of Ramadan, Muslims around the world get up before dawn to eat Sahur, the pre-dawn meal, then they perform the fajr prayer. They have to stop eating and drinking before the call for prayer starts until the fourth prayer of the day, Maghrib. Muslims may continue to eat and drink after the sun has set until the next morning's fajr prayer call. Then the process starts all over.
Ramadan is a time of reflecting and worshipping God. Muslims are expected to put more effort into following the teachings of Islam and to avoid obscene and irreligious sights and sounds. Sexual thoughts and activities during fasting hours are also forbidden.[Qur'an 2:187] Purity of both thoughts and actions is important. The fast is intended to be an exacting act of deep personal worship in which Muslims seek a raised awareness of closeness to God.


Fanoos Ramadan, Cairo


Sultan Ahmet Mosque, Istanbul, Turkey in Ramaḍān (the writing with lights called mahya)
The act of fasting is said to redirect the heart away from worldly activities, its purpose being to cleanse the inner soul and free it from harm. It also allows Muslims to practice self-discipline, self-control [6], sacrifice, and empathy for those who are less fortunate; thus encouraging actions of generosity and charity. However, a certain level of self-control can be lost by those who suffer from eating disorders.[7]
The elderly, the chronically ill, and the mentally ill are exempt from fasting, although the first two groups must endeavor to feed the poor in place of their missed fasting. Also exempt are pregnant women, women during the period of their menstruation, and women nursing their newborns. A difference of opinion exists among Islamic scholars as to whether this last group must make up the days they miss at a later date, or feed poor people as a recompense for days missed.[8] While fasting is not considered compulsory in childhood, many children endeavor to complete as many fasts as possible as practice for later life. Lastly, those traveling are exempt, but must make up the days they miss.[Qur'an 2:184] More specifically, Twelver Shī‘ah define those who travel more than 14 miles in a day as exempt.[7]. The elderly or those who suffer from a disability or disease and have no prospect of getting better in the future can pay the cost of Iftar for a person who cannot afford it, or else they can host him in their house and have him eat with them after sunset as a way of repaying for the days they could not fast. [Qur'an 2:184]
A person who is observing Ramadan might break the fast accidentally, due to having forgotten it. In such an instance, one should spit out the food being eaten or cease the forbidden activity, immediately upon remembering the fast. This can usually happen in the first or early days of Ramadan because that person might have not yet been acclimated into fasting from dawn till dusk.
When Ramadan came to overshadow Ashura in importance, it took on some characteristics of the latter. According to a well-known hadith, the person who observes Ramadan properly will have all their past sins forgiven. According to another, "When Ramadan arrives, Heaven's gates are opened, Hell's gates are closed, and the demons are chained up" and who ever passes away will enter paradise. [9]

Ramadan

Ramadan (Arabic: رمضان‎) (also written Ramazan, Ramzan, Ramadhan, Ramdan, Ramadaan) is the ninth month of the Islamic calendar. It is the Islamic month of fasting, in which participating Muslims refrain from eating, drinking, smoking, and indulging in anything that is in excess or ill-natured; from dawn until dusk [1] Fasting is meant to teach the Muslim patience, modesty and spirituality. Ramaḍān is a time to fast for the sake of Allah, and to offer more prayer than usual. During Ramaḍān, Muslims ask forgiveness for past sins, pray for guidance and help in refraining from everyday evils, and try to purify themselves through self-restraint and good deeds. As compared to solar calendar, the dates of Ramadan vary, moving forward about ten days each year. Ramadhan was the month in which the first verses of the Qur'an were revealed[Qur'an 2:185] to the Prophet Muhammad.

JuSt WrItIng (2)

HUMAN HEART

The most delicate object in the universe
Is undoubtedly the human heart
If touched the right way it
Could create a life of joy
Yet if the wrong button is
Simply scraped the effects
Are potentially devastating
Once broken this object
Can not be mended
Oddly enough the organ
That gives you life
Will cause the most pain
As long as it beats
The emotional scar will heal
Yet never be forgotten
To control your heart
Must control their mind
Control their beliefs
One must be able to embrace pain
Allow it to run its course
To fight pain is a battle you will never win
A tear could cure the most serious situation
But first you must allow yourself to cry
Come to terms with your pain
And embrace it
Let it run its natural course
Only then will you be
In full control again
So protect your heart
Listen to your heart
Learn from your heart
Become a stronger individual
Become a stronger man
Or lady

just writing

Death is when your loved ones must depart
Death is a sharp pain to the heart

Death is a feeling of permanent sadness & pain
Death is when your loved ones have forever gone away

Death is a call to heaven or hell
Death is an eternal mansion or cell

Death is a lesson to learn about
Death is a loss, without a doubt
Death is an unhappy feeling to have
Death is unpleasant on anyone's behalf

Death is something we all will go through
Death is a storm waiting to brew

Death is a lingering crow always overhead
Death is a soul, done being fed

Death is cruel,
Death is unfair,
Why death?
Does death care?

Death is unkind,
Death breaks hearts,
Why death?
Do you like to part?

Death is here,
Death is there,
Why death?
Why be everywhere?

Death is the end,
Death is to die,
Why death?
To make people cry?

Death was created,
Death is still here,
Why death?
We live in fear,

Death is death,
Death is dead,
Why death?
Because death said.

Death is forever, so don’t flirt with death
Death is painful, so stay away from knifes
Death is not for lovers, so don’t die
Death is not for me, so don’t even try

Death is never clear, so be careful
Death is never fun, so stay away from strangers
Death is never pleasing, so don’t get caught up in the hype
Death is never fair, so get use to it
Death is always occurring, so don’t forget it

Death is never what u expect, so expect the unexpected
Death is not for you, so please don’t give up
Death is forever, so don’t forget that

i'm a dreamer who think such posible act that neither want to think about it

...............
Whimsical by nature and by practice, the Dreamer has no problem with accepting things

without proof. Dreamers have a slightl...y unrealistic view on life- they often come

across as eccentric, but are sensitive to criticism, and will be upset if a friend

pokes fun at their beliefs. However, they are not necessarily religious- they rely

on their intuition to tell them what is right and what is wrong, and if they are

unable to find a religion that follows their intuition, they might mix and match

beliefs from all different places in order to satisfy their morals. Dreamers are

skilled at bringing out the best in people- although they are not the most loyal

friends because they tend to jump around until they find someone they can trust,

they are always a good choice for an interesting conversation, as Dreamers are

gifted with an active imagination and a curious nature. Dreamers get along well with

other Dreamers, as well as Riders and Optimists.

ADD ME

i just created my own facebook profile
if u have one
just add me by serching my email
syam_xs93@yahoo.com
k

thanks

after long not updating this site

"just writing"

today at school
nothing much
many chinese student did't come
and my hyperactive friend"azmul munir" did't come either
because his shulder was badly injured
actualy it's been 3 week he did't come to school
after he injured his shoulder in the fakarudin cup..
but nevermind he's a strong will boy" i guese :p"
...
early in the morning we(my class mate) were shock because of our
class time table been change..
we don't no anything..plus our school techer were long gone
but my friend mr.black got the new timetable from who(don't no)
and it not change much at all.
\just a several subject..

the fun thing about today is
about our new english teacher who replaced
our original techer who is in a holyday for some reason
his name is FAKARUDI(i hope the spelling is right)
i prefer to call him mr.rudy (lol)wkakakaka
well he tech us in whole difrent way than other english teacher
well he ask us to draw cartoon faces in our exercise book
this is the first time that i'm doodling in my exercise book with teaceher permision...
but over all it just fun learning for him



p/s sory for the lame language :p

HARRY POTTER 'RULEZ'

Yesterday
aku ngan abang aku p tengok cite
harry potter and the half blood prince
best gilerrrr

ME AND MY BROTHER WENT ther togethere to see it
it's been a loong time my brother and i spend time together
yeah,,,,,,,,,,
the story quite intresting
it is its sixth series

i think going to ceniema will be my new hobby for now
i often go there(alor star mall big screen cinema)
it's near my house
haha
but my father is not quite happy wifth me going see the movie
he said it is a waste of time and me spend my money to a waste things to do
why...... i don't think it is not a waste of time
besides i enjoy it
i go there once every 2 week when it show a great movie
???????
i just go there to relax f my mind and it work's

maybe my father is to old to understand
but i don't care
i do what i think best for me
i just need a little time to relax for a while
thats all i need
it is not wrong what i do...
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tOdAy RoCk's

tOdAy at school
realy booring
don't do much
just westing my time hanging around at class

IN THE EARLY DAY
I REALY SHOCK wENT there are (aerobick)
Minggu kecergasan
hahaha
it's realy funny esspecialy when i see the teacher do it
hahaha
i see cekgu Jamilah(our pysick teacher) and my throack want to bleed out laughing wifth my friend
keep going jamilah
hahahaha

after that we go back to and watch the rubick cube fenomena
the chinese student play wift it like there is no tomorow
and the malay student have fun wift it to
man i wish i can solve it( the rubick cube)

the best part is
in my class after recess
there is a b-boy battle(hip hop dance)
pergh..... realy cool man
see them dancing around
makes umbleaveble dance move

after that i went to the computer lab
to settle unfinish work yesterday
(hari anugerah cemerlang) pack up some ict things
like the handycam and cables that we use yesterday
huih. penat gilerrrrr........wayer berjuntai-juntai

the coclusion is TODAY IS FIIL WIFTH exitement
hahaha

eXelent DaY

HARI ANUGERAH CEMERLAN(the real day)

YESSSSS
everything go well today
although there are a little technical
that can be helped (black out)
everthing going acording to the plan


I EARN many experince and knowledge today
this is my first time standing near the SULTAN this close
pergh...... realy nervous
my heart burn wifth all the nervous sensation and exitment
it is realy great actualy

The best part is that i can learn many thing
and act like a VIP there hahaha
i'm standing close to the SULTAN
yeah

THE '09' brodcasting crew is great man
hope that next year ii will be part of it again
yesssss
to the great techer ho hlp us(pak g , pak ramzi, ust saleh , ust az, and miss rozi)
thank u

tire'd day

TODAY'
im realy tired
so many thing's i do for our school HARI ANUGERAH CEMERLANG preperation
i'm a part of our school brodcasting crew for the event
actualy i'm a newbee
yesterday is my first time be apart of the crew
it's realy new to me
i'm happy actualy
wifth the form 5 senior and the guiding teacher
working together and of couse us the form 4
there all quite friendly to me
although it is and exhausting day but i'm happy
a lot of knowledge i gain today
aboutt recording in the right angle and perfect bacground wifth the handycam
and many more

Tomorrow is the real thing
there a little nervous force in my heart for tomorow
i wil be standing near the SULTAN to do my job
haha
hope that tomorow will go acording to the plan

imposible

this video i got when i'm just serching for new thing in utube(tu)....it os a fun game call o2jam..... wow what the hell of a human to play this song in this game .......imposible maybe.. this what a human brain can do ..wow incredble actualy..............if this man can play this imposible song in this game ,,, imagine what we can do in our life if we work hard....

tHe MiD tErM ExAm

The exam is already over a "decate ago"... my result is the worst in my examination history........... i felt a litle bit depres , actualy i don't feel anything at all i just said in my mind that this the result i get after all done in the pass 6 month(i don't take it seriously)..... I don't no why but i didn't do my best in the examination, seriously i did't prepare for it at all i just when to the school tand just answer it ( i didn't read and rivise what ive lern)....... I just wan't to test my brain after 6 month of study ...... i don't take my study seriously this year , i don't no why but i thin'k i lost my spirit of studying this year maybe because i have some problem and issues, it realy hunted me and effect my normal life...huh

i showed my result to my mother and she was realy shock of it...well i just said slumberly to her i just didn't take it seriously ........ i'ts a stupid excuse actualy hahha.. but what done is done and i'ts time to start a new chapter in my life "hope that my problem will not interfier wifth my school life"

i'm bACK

huh.. it's been a long time now since i wrote anything in my blog.. actualy a often open my blog to see updated post from my folowers and my friend... i just don't no to write anything in my blog..........so i just open and see something new in my dashbord and coment and then i sign out every day since i wrote the last post... everyday i mean it......

i don't no why but today i got my courage and spritual force to write again hehe.... the truth is i got bored writing blog... i doen't enjoy writing much (actualy i hate writing)

a lot had happen in my life since the last post i publis til now. in my ict class in my rugby team and at home........

......progress is failed due to my limitation of time....